March 2020

Hello world. 

We are doing our best to take care of you and your sweet humans. We cherish all you offer. Your trees, your water, the breezes you offer in each direction. I believe there is an opportunity to shift how we roll and what we do as humans on this earth. I also know this time is traumatic for many souls.

Deep into a week of our version of isolation I have found more peace than angst. More relief than pressure. As 95 percent introvert I have been relieved deleting appointments from my calendar, some with a bit of sadness but not many. I have been relieved having less mom taxi time and more home with my boys time. I have not had any annoyance at filling up my gas tank - part guilt for my footprint in the past, part worry at the price of a tank gas and part suburban why cant we move to the mountains yet burnout. This has faded to quiet and observation. Of all things.

I have been here before, different but the same wonderment that the flowers bloom and the wind rustles the trees while big things happen on our world. This feel different though. It is mixed with hope for our planet and all beings - and a fear we will go back to how we were before. Busy, not noticing, rushed, checking off a list, waking up at dawn some days already yearning for our heads on the pillow already at starlight.

What I know now is I feel oddly peaceful with an undercurrent of wonder and concern for the future. I want to feel each step so that I may be more understanding when others reach these steps at different times. Or when I reach a level of feeling you or they may be going through now.

I miss seeing faces in person and yet I hold each in the highest regard, for taking care of me as you take care of you from a distance. And for all of us taking care of our precious world and each sacred human that breathes from her atmosphere.